I'm sitting here on my comfy thrift store couch trying to organize my thoughts for this post, but I'm at an epic fail right now. So, if my thoughts are a little all over the place, just be warned that it is 2:45 AM and I haven't been to bed. Anyway, I got a job at Goodwill last week. I am pretty stoked. Except at this moment, I'm a little stressed out about it for a couple of reasons. My sister ended our contracts with AT&T and switched to Sprint. Except, I didn't know she was going to do that and the store manager was supposed to call me that day to let me know if I passed my drug test and background check - which I did, by the way (duh). So, much to my chagrin, I was unreachable to everyone in the known universe. The store manager finally emailed me today to tell me to call him to find about orientation and training and paperwork and all that fun new job stuff. I didn't get the email till almost midnight though. Almost 10 hours after he had sent the emai...
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Truths...okay, okay...confessions: I'm addicted to pinterest.com - truly, it's like getting a new glossy magazine in the mail every day where you get to look at stuff you want and not have to waste your time looking at adverts for things that make you believe that you aren't good enough. I blog stalk. Everyone else is doing it... I could use my allotted 40 hours a month of free Pandora in a week. I drink water like a fish. It keeps my kidneys and liver happy though. I often have dreams every night. Most of the time they're in color, but once in a while, I'll have a dream in black and white. I am finding that with age, I'm getting slightly more OCD about things. Don't ask. I love sticky notes. Any color, shape and size, I love them. Whenever I go to Staples or OfficeMax, I have to stop myself from buying pens, pencils, notebooks or just any sort of office supplies. It's a bad habit. I love buying storage bins or any sort of organizationa...
My roommates and I went to the beach this last week to recharge our batteries. After so many rainy/foggy days, it felt amazing to be able to spend the day in the sun. We literally spent the whole day just walking around. Most everything was closed for the season, but it was fun spending time outside for once. I can only imagine how crowded this place is during the summer. It's the closest beach town to where we live so, we'll probably have to head south - or north - to Astoria, Rockaway or Tillamook. I'm excited either way. In other news, I finally got a call back for a job interview. In fact, they had me do a first AND second interview while I was there. I'm hoping that I'll hear back from them this next week. I mean, why keep me there for two hours if they weren't going to hire me, right? I don't know...I'm just hoping to hear back from them. It'll be nice to have an income again and not get so sick over how I'm going to pay my rent...
Things I'm resolving to do better in 2012: 1. Actual journal writing. I broke out my paper journal when I moved to Oregon to remind myself that I needed to document the move and neglected to even open it till last night. I wrote until my brain was thoroughly swished around in my head. I still need to write more about what is going on in my life. There is so much that has happened in the past couple days. Big, huge, gigantic life changing decisions need to be made and I'm scared. These type of things I've neglected to write in my journal the past year. 365 days of life has gone by and I haven't written any of it done. 2. Read my Patriarchal Blessing more often. I really am a dummy when it comes to spiritual things. In all the stressful things that have been happening in the past year, I've practically had to smack myself for not reading this sacred piece of personal scripture more often. 3. Scripture study. My friend Claudia started this little challenge on...
So, this year was the Year of Expr ession. I did a lot of knitting and made up some recipes (artistic expression). I didn't write as much as I wanted to, but I did my fair share. I'm perpetually working on my book - isn't everyo ne though? - and getting no where near close to having a concrete outline. There's still a lot of ideas floating around in my head that are needing to be written down somewhere. I'm a feign for lists. Ask anyone. I'll re-write them over and over again to get them perfect and then I quickly fold the list up and put in my pocket or in my bag. Then it inevitably gets tattered and worn and unreadable. Anyway, I feel like I haven't expressed myself, heart and soul, in the ways that I wanted to. I have no problem expressing myself by way of word. I may be quiet in real life, but I do have something to say. My artistic expression could use some work. I really wanted to get into photography this year but the lack of funds and motivation just...
Realities of Christmas 2011: *I'm having an abnormally GREEN Christmas. Meaning there are still (some) leaves on the trees and the grass is still green. It's weird to not have a couple inches of snow on the ground. *I'm poorer than poor. Just thinking that my rent is due in a week gives me hives and ulcers. *I miss my family so much it kind of makes me want to cry. *The only Christmas decorations we have up in the apartment are our stockings. It's pretty sad. It just doesn't feel like Christmas for me this year. I'm away from home. I have no money. There are hardly any Christmas decorations up in my apartment. There's no snow on the ground. It is cold though. Cold enough to snow even. But alas, no white Christmas for me. Which, in and of itself, is a weird concept for me. This is my first Christmas without snow in 8 years. My first Christmas not in Utah in as many years. My first Christmas without my nieces. I hate that I'm so far away from my family rig...
...it's hard to make a change. Some times it's just hard to be away from your family when you know you're exactly where you need to be. I think this Christmas is going to be especially hard for me. I remember the first Christmas without my mom. That was hard. Conscientiously deciding to move before Christmas, it's like reopening that wound. I've never spent a Christmas away from my family. Well, except one, but I had extended family and friends to be with. It's like the way that goes song, "It can't breathe without you. But I have to." I can't believe that I'm about to admit to this, but it hardly feels like Christmas without the snow. Sure, it's been overcast almost every day since I've arrived, but with no snow, no sun and perpetual overcast-edness, it's hard to feel like it's Christmas. Aside from the weather being dreary, I think what I'm going to miss most about the holiday are my nieces and nephew and my little bro...