A Little ♥ and Soul

...you can count on me. Ugh. I don't know where home is anymore. If home is where the heart is, then I am utterly lost. I feel lost. There's family stuff going on that I don't know how to handle. I suppose I have this ideal situation running through my head of how my family should be. How things should be without my mom here. That reality I cannot change. I cannot bring my mom back. As much as I want to, I can't. Anyway, this ideal situation that often plauges me when things in my family aren't going as smoothly as I want them to, is again plauging me. I want my family to be happy. I want my dad to come to terms that his ex wife isn't the best person for him. She never will be no matter how much counseling she goes though. There has been too many rifts, tears in the tapestry that is our family, that she has caused that there is no way that any of us, my siblings and I, could be happy with them reconciling. All in all, I want my dad back. In my head, this tapestr

5 Placed I've Lived *Clovis, CA *Fresno, CA *East Rockaway, NY *Provo, UT *Whittier, CA 5 Snacks I love *cheese and crackers *grapes *Otter Pops *licorice *popcorn 5 Jobs I've Had *Nanny *Gas n' Go cashier *Maceys cashier *Book Baron sales clerk *Cell phone slinger If I had a million dollars I would...? ...Pay for my education. Pay off all my debt. Pay tithing. Buy a house and start a library. Save at least 10% in my .08% yielding savings account. Buy an iPod and lots and lots of music. Buy an environmentally friendly car. Buy a laptop so I can stop going to the library all the time just to check my email. Buy a piano. Buy a pina colada slurpee. Give away the rest to my favorite charity(ies). 5 things I love *My family *My bed *Pad Thai and peanut curry from Thai Kitchen *Sunny days *the smell of clean laundry

Can anyone make my hair look like hers ??? If you can, I'll love you forever and ever and ever....I really like her hair and I want it. I'm almost at the point of coveting. Man, I sound lame. Maybe I should stop... But really, if you feel like paying for a haircut and a body wave, I'll love you forever and ever and ever and....ok, I'll stop begging...but remember, all I want for Christmas is a haircut and a body wave. Okay and maybe an iPod from craigslist . Seriously though, I'd be happy with that for Christmas. Oh and some stocking stuff...and the greediness will stop....now. Is that enough Christmas gift hinting??