A Little ♥ and Soul

If I were one of those people who posted personal ads on CraigsList, I would post something like this: I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.  Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument you realize you're wrong. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to take a nap when I was younger.  There is a great need for a sarcasm font. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet? Was learning cursive really necessary? MapQuest really needs to start their directions at #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my own neighborhood. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died. I really can't remember the last time I wasn't at least a little tired. *ugh...word* Bad decisions make good stories. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you aren't going to do anything productive for

So, I went to Seaside, OR today with my roommate, Kim. She's moving back to  Utah this weekend and I'll be leaving the end of July. Life has thrown wrenches into our plans for staying here in Oregon, but honestly, I'm pretty okay with moving. When it looked like I would have to move back home, I wanted to fight it, but I didn't feel like I needed to. It just feels like it needs to happen.  I'm a little sad that I'm leaving Oregon's fair weather summer for Utah's sometimes outrageous hot months. I have a 1 year plan to finish school and move to - maybe - Jacksonville, Florida. I guess we'll see where the year will take me.

Tomorrow is pay day and I've already burned through 3/4 of my paycheck. Of the things that I've budgeted this paycheck for, none of them aren't even remotely fun. There's my student loan, drivers license renewal (which I'm mad about because Utah doesn't do online renewals anymore), electric bill, phone bill, dentist appointment (for which I have to pay all expenses out of pocket), TriMet bus passes for two weeks, and an enrollment fee for a Medical Insurance Billing and Coding program I want to do. All of this leaves me very little to do any grocery shopping. Here in the Beaver State, I probably qualify for some sort of assistance. There's a lot of poor people here. A lot of people who work as hard as they can and yet, can't make ends meet for themselves let alone their families. It makes my head spin. I'm one of those people that hate asking for help for anything. I hate it. If I can do it on my own, I don't ask. Even if it means I go without

The past six months have gone by so fast! I've done things that I've sworn I wouldn't do. I've been jobless. I've never been so sick of rain. I thought that I would never in a million years miss snow, but I kind of do. I haven't missed my family this much in a long time either. I often sit on my balcony and think about all this changing I've been doing. Some of it hasn't been so great and I've done a u-turn, so to speak, to become a better person. On a nice day, this is what I get to enjoy. The clouds are usually more orange from the sun shining through them. Then they turn blue and purple and then, more often than not, the change makes me miss home. That's another thing that I thought would never happen in a million years. I miss home. Utah = home. As beautifully green as Oregon is, I miss the desert. How weird. I lived in Utah for over eight years and never in those years did I really consider Utah to be home. I guess it was home in the