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So, I'm still sick. I'm hoping that it won't turn into a sinus infection. Not a lot has been happening as of lately. Aside from getting sick. I've been feeling lazy which is a sure sign that I need to find a full time job or another part time job to help fill my time. Plus, I got my last paycheck from my brother after Christmas and all of that went to rent. So needless to say: Imma stressin' about making rent for February. Last time I went grocery shopping was when my dad was in town and he bought them for me. All this not so great energy isn't so good for my morality and happiness.

I'm going to apply for jobs via the internet this late afternoon. Hopefully I'll get something soon. I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm too smart to work at a gas station. There isn't any room for growth or advancment and I'm pretty sure I'll be stuck at the same pay if I stay there for a year or more.

Ugh...I just need to get out of Utah. Not that would fix my problem or anything, I just need...something. I'm lacking motivation that's for sure. My brother has been going back and forth about me moving in with them. I'd be contributing the family "pot" and working and whatever else. I'd still pretty much have the same social life as it is now: nonexistant. But that's by my choice and I'm going to venture to say that its because I feel like I'm not living up to what I know I can do.

Anyway, I'm going to apply for some jobs before I run out of motivation. I may run out of it to apply for jobs, but it'll be put forth on the sink full of dirty dishes leftover from last night...and maybe my dirty laundry.

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