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Alaska

So, I'm not going to Alaska. I'm not as bummed as I thought I would be, but I'm going to miss the potential money that would have come from that job. Honestly, I wanted to go and I even prayed about it knowing that I probably shouldn't go. I applied anyway. What's the harm in trying, right? Anyway, I'm still looking for a better job. The bookstore just isn't cutting it and I'm already stressed out about the bills that seem to be piling up against my wishes. Psh...how dare they? They didn't even ask my permission!

I guess it's a good thing that I'm not going. Apparently Heavenly Father has a bigger plan for me and wants me to find some other way to pay for school. It would have been sooo nice to not really have to try and save for school when there aren't any stores in the area of Alaska I would have been going to. Gosh...don't you hate that? Every time I wanted to be given the easy way of doing things, Heavenly Father thinks that it's time for you to grow and stretch once more. It does make me feel more grateful for the things that He has given me as of lately, but still, He knows how hard it is for me to save money how desperately I needed it for school and other things.

Whatever, I can't complain. I've had a good life so far. I just need to take this in stride and work harder I guess...

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