A Little ♥ and Soul

Today was my first day back to school in nearly 3 weeks. The week before my class went on our official 10 day break, the sh*t really hit the fan here at work. Well, it wasn't all at the facility I work for, but we certainly did get sprayed by the proverbial crap. Anyhow, during that whole week - before the break - I worked every single day. As in, of the four day a week school schedule we were on during the summer, I didn't attend a single day because of my responsibilities here at work and because the things that happened during that week. The dust has settled, but everything leading up to that point has left me thinking about what I'm going to do about school. I've missed enough days at school because of work. This whole graveyard shift messes with my sleeping schedule and throw in a book heavy/skills learning heavy course...it stresses me out. There is no lecture. It's all go at your own pace. I never knew, before now, that I'm the kind of student that thri...

This post has been sitting in my pile of posts for the past two weeks. It was getting lonely, so, I decided that I should probably finish it. I don't even remember what I had initially planned for this post. I guess 14 days will do that to your memory. Anyhow, I'm sitting here in bed. I just finished my dinner. I wasn't even hungry. Boredom will screw you over every time. Oy. Like I was saying, I'm sitting here in bed trying to think of something to do. Do I get ready for bed? Do I play around on the internet? Do I go for a walk?? If I had a car and money, I would probably be at the bookstore smelling all those beautiful books only to find my way to the travel section. I'm getting distracted. The main reason I stopped by to finish this post was because of a song that I came upon while trying to decide what to do with the rest of time before I go to bed tonight. The song that I just listened to - 3 times in a row, by the way - is a song by The Proclaimers called ...

Every once in a while, I'll get onto Google Maps and look at places I could move to when I'm done with school. Most of the time, I always end up wanting to move to somewhere on the East coast. Anywhere from Boston all the way down to New Bern, NC. I love the thought of having the option of not having to buy a car to get around. Unlike anywhere in LA or in its vicinity, I'd have to buy a car - which would add to the pollution. If I had been ready to be on my own, I think I would have enjoyed my time in NY more. In spite of the cold weather being a bit brutal to my California thinking, I loved that winter is pretty magical in NY. Honestly, anywhere in the tri-state area, in spite of the sometimes brutal winters and blackouts, winter is kind of magical. At least to me. I'm not completely sold on the summer season, but having four distinct seasons is awesome. As far as going all the way down to North Carolina, at least the northern part that's close to the coast, it...

"You think you die alone, but that's not true. Nobody is alone in this world. We have to coexist and take care of each other."  Say it with me: I am not alone.  I am not alone. I am not alone.  Do you believe it? I hope you do.

I'm completely messed up tonight. Sleep wise, I mean. I've had a whole week off from work due to the fact that the girls I work with are on a trek. Like the pioneers. Kind of. Minus the handcarts and stuff. I go back to work tomorrow night for another round of drama filled days and I'm-fake-sleeping nights. Totally not excited. I'm taking a mini-vacation to the Pacific Northwest the beginning of June. I seriously cannot wait. The fact that I have a short summer break for school and then a day and a half later I'll be on the road to the Portland, Oregon area excites me to no end. I'll tell you why. In a list. 1. I feel like I've been working hard on figuring my life out.  2. Everyone deserves a little time off from real life. From the people they normally associate with during the year. Everyone should take a time out.  3. It's good for individual morale. Frankly, little vacations, time outs if you will, stop individuals from poking the eyes o...

Whenever I work the graveyard shift on Saturdays, by the time Monday comes around, I feel like I've worked five days in a row of straight graveyard shifts. I don't sleep on Sunday until the evening and then I wake up at 5:30 am on Monday. At this point, my toes are edging on exhausted. It doesn't help that I have a whole week ahead of me to accomplish stuff. bleh... Anyway, I've spent sometime outside today. The sun is shining, and even if it's a little bit chilly, I love that the sun is making a more consistent appearance. My cheeks are a little more rosy which makes the bags under my eyes even more apparent, but at this moment, I don't care. If the sun weren't in the perfect spot to shine in my eyes while I sit at my desk, I'd have my blinds open. But I'll settle for half opened blinds with my sliding glass door wide open. My birthday is in a few days. I doubt that anyone will really remember it if it weren't for the fact that my birthday...

So, I started school...again. I've completed my third week and I've already been absent F I V E times. Horrible, I know. I'm attending MATC - Mountainlands Applied Technology College - in Lehi by Thanksgiving Point. It takes me about an hour to get there on the bus. Anyway, I'm taking the Medical Assistant course, and so far, it's been a little stressful. The first two tests I took, I had to retake to get the program passing grade. If this were a regular university level course, I wouldn't have had to retake the tests. Well...I guess I would have had to anyway. The nursing program at UVU requires an 80% passing grade for the whole program. So why would this be any different?? My grade so far is an 82.5%. Not too shabby. Although, my attendance will be the undoing of all my studying. The hardest thing, aside from all the medical terminology I have to memorize, is the fact that I'm still working graveyard shifts. If I had a different job, I think I'd hav...